Into the unknown.
Because while I know what is going on, while I know what I am doing, while I wish to make a difference and solve some issues here, I am scared because in 3 days it all becomes real and I walk back in there and I must make my stand here and now.
I cannot fail, I cannot lose, I have to cherish my victories and defeats, I have to succeed to prove a point.
And thus because of all of that I am scared for the first time in a long time I am frightened by doors, books, uncertainty, knowledge, and above all else not having something there to make me want to not run away.
Everything that ever was has led to this point and now on the edge of this abyss I look at the darkness and see the stars above and below, the rivers of space floating out in front of me. So I step off.
Goodbye imagined self importance, and delusions of grandeur. There is no hint that help will come save me from me.
